school makes me wish that i was dead i want to drop out then drop off a bridge the work that i neglected has made me wind up in a classroom during the summer filled with kids and teachers who really don't give a fuck i don't have anywhere to be in this june heat but when my bed and i get together the sleep is pretty neat i hate everything

i ask myself that all the time did i find you? the sun is at your back and the sky matches your eyes and off in the great distance storm clouds rid themselves of their contents onto cracked, parched earth unclear light toward the horizon i step on the gas i grip the wheel tight in my hands i let visions of her play in my mind every time i hear her voice a kind of silence washes over me and for the first time in my life i knew who i was destined to be and who i was meant to be with and no other thing has ever felt quite like belonging to her does this is how i was made and here i am resolute none of this can be undone and i will never be the same the sun stooped to kiss the night the sun burned holes into the sky the sun spoke to the earth in language of the universe rays and waves and secret forms of communication and underneath the ground a curtain parted to show all of the things that had been lying dormant in that place a new thing began to bloom they were flowers born on the same day under the same rain falling and into the same overwhelming light the flowers tore themselves wide open to show each other what was hidden inside your eyes flashed fire your eyes flashed nebula and my heart would have died otherwise

most of the time thinking about you is a perpetual sun burn spreading down through my arms and leaking out from my fingertips whether that is a good or bad thing, i am still yet to figure out my love for you is endless i tend to fear the fearless worry is relentless and i am pathetic i hear your voice whispering somewhere from the depths of me these people here don’t understand shoving verses and false faith down my throat until i choke until i die we create our own fears so why do we fear them? i hear your voice whispering somewhere from the depths of me i hear your voice whispering somewhere within the depths of me so many things are happening and all we do is stop and stare and wait and hope for more what arrogant pieces of shit humans are now i am on a train full of dead people some sleeping some looking out the window, thinking thoughts without points or angles or boundaries lost souls searching for someone to sail across their hearts (instead of just dipping their toes in and deciding for themselves that it’s too cold for a swim) i am here to tell you that i knew everything i know everything i hear your voice whispering somewhere within the depths of me i love the moment when i put on my glasses i can see the world in so much vivid, beautiful clarity beyond what i can imagine i am afraid to move because i might cough up a novel i hear i hear i hear your voice whispering from somewhere not yet discovered i am afraid to speak because what if i speak too loudly THE AIR SMELLS SO GOOD AND THE WIND CHILL IS JUST RIGHT AND WOW YOU LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL WHILE GAZING AT THE MOON i’m sorry i can’t hear you over the sidewalk talking i have 6 dollars in my wallet and legs made for walking if you can’t face reality then teeth it it is twilight 1am birds are chirping there is a lightning storm across the sky awaiting the first rainfall if these morse code messages aren’t enough to live for then i don’t know what is i am alive under the sun it kisses my skin like your lips on mine a burn so good something to remember and i hear your voice whispering old familiar tunes humming to the beat this poem we have created somewhere within the depths of me

the space in between attempting to hold all that exists in that place we are almost touching our mouths hover very close this thing that we are creating it is forever on our tongues there is something within you that causes me to just sigh my breath and wonder my eyelids fall the air that passes between us is electric and alive even though we believe we are not fluid and graceful the universe and all it’s particles are aflame we are surrounded the first atoms to spring hot from this small void whispered us their secret no one else knows this only you and i the big bang in reverse: illuminating as we grow younger and warmer agitated dense lights flipping on flashing going dark blinking in and out reconfiguring cast your rays upon me and help me hold on the binary stars orbiting bodies burning and immense the first light occurs across the service of your faint complexion, your golden hair glowing this is happening now and i swear to you i will not turn away when the rest of our physical being is washed and withered away this light that once shone upon us will still illuminate time is here this has happened the atomic weight of love